When I nearly overcome the depression and start to work
I drop down  to frustration straight.......
What's the fuck?!
Actually, I dont really solve the depression
I just get such weak energy to ignore this hihi emotion
It seems ridiculous that I need energy even to ignore
but it is the truth and I think others need it as well

Life must go on; I get back my works, but it make me frustrate straight...so sad
Once you realize that tons of works are waiting for you and they all accompany a deadline which is so close to you
You wanna die...........
And it is quite annoying to organise the stuff about leaving perth when you dont have enough time to do others already
In fact, I know these are not the real matter
The main problem is that I cant find a way to make myself  feel like I am on the right track
I feel all I do with problems inside, I lose my confidence

I am a loser for love and friendship already
I dont wanna lose anymore
Be strong!!! 
I will be fine at the end, right?
I believe I can live well in my lonely world
Fighting!!!!!!