I like that feeling
Heart beating....beating....and beating..............
it beats till you realize the sound, but it is so so small
You are the only one can hear it

When such beating happens
It means something you want is getting closer to you
Very very close..........
It is too real that you almost can touch it

I tell myself millions of time it is time to realize it
But I fail it.......fail... and fail it again

I look back to the past, I ask myself if the one I try to realize is my soul
Sometime I trust, Sometime I get frustration
Thinking circulates.............
I suddenly become conscious that the only thing I have realized leaves nothing special to the present  
But the precious memory remains, it is brilliant
I smile
Everytime I recall, I fall in love with it
It is already enough for me

My plan followed my feeling
I plan it, cos I believe I would be pleasure if I have it
Yet, I dont go through it, I have no right to reject it
Cause I dont have another road

I am painful to be in the middle of the road
Can't go & Can't leave
That's why I spur myself to go through all by unusual speed
And to be the one can shout out that 
"I did throughout play it, so I have the power to make the statement now!"